Rawurw (Cry)
RETURN TO ISSUE 14
In eons of warmth and kinship,
did life begin in the shadows
and undulations of the Sea.
Dust is shaken in the waves and
the mud is vibrant now, fires
whirring therein, in webs and rings
and swirls and spirals and zigs
and zags. Living creatures
have emerged, and they
flit and flutter, and spread
like grains and specks. And some floated
far away, strayed into a Plane
where things fade and become
forgotten and their flames
were stamped out under the pressure.
A Shark came, to turn us toward
ourselves, it is said. These were the
greatest of the first lifeforms, and
they grew incessantly, and could
remain and persist in their
energies. So the People of
the Sea gave the name <<nsarovith>>
to the Shark, for they were called
to keep us tied to the warmth and
powers Below. Thus if any
living creature strayed and felt the
strain, and the stretching of their flesh,
and the dimming of their fires,
the Shark would take a shard of their
own flesh, to give to them, saying:
<<rayinorienwiveku>>
which translates to “fill the gap.”
For this was how the Shark could grow:
a gap in their flesh is broken,
and a scale would grow in there,
like the teeth in the mouth of a
baby, to cover the rupture.
And so it had been with the dark
face of the Deep, where it rumbles:
a chasm broke open that
was filled with the old sparks of light.
The Shark instructed us in
similar fashion, so that
every living creature learned ways
to grow and shift their flesh amid
the flows of the Sea, and against
the weight of the world far Above,
to heal their wounds and feed themselves,
that they might maintain their fires
well like the Shark knew how to do,
remaining and persisting too.
And if they needed scales or fins
or claws or beaks or other parts,
out of the mud of their flesh the
Shark grew it for them and gave it.
But the Shark always warned them not
to go up to where the waters
become sparse and dissipate, for
there they would struggle and would die,
to be lost and floating, with no
resting place, no place for their flesh
or bones to go.
Now the Whale, who was a jokester,
was always challenging the Shark.
The Whale would go Up to break the
surface of the waters, and they
felt a separation from the
Deep, and saw a great chasm, and
felt the waters thin out and fade
into mist and air. Yet, they saw
the luminaries up there, the
stars and the moon and other
cosmic entities, and these were
languid and their lights were so dim.
Whale would send waters up from
within their mouth, to give the
luminaries something to drink.
To this day, we see the Whale
doing this, so that by their mouth
the heavenly bodies can have
some measure of connection to
the Source of life. Afterward, the
Whale would return to the heart of
the Ocean, to report what they
had witnessed. “We have kin out there,
who we have forgotten, and who need
water too, if their light is to
shine ever brightly!” the Whale would
say. But nobody would listen
to Whale because the Shark said not
to, calling Whale a liar. To
this very day, those who try to
bridge separation are
considered tricksters. And this is
why Whale is called <<Òrarw>> which means
“way of translating.”
At some point, our beloved
ancestor heard the Whale’s songs
about the world above. Our
ancestor swam close to them,
eager to see these other
beings, the luminaries
beyond the reaches of the Sea.
And our ancestor expressed to
the Whale: “I doubt the Shark has been
accurate in telling us that
you are deceitful and trying
to lead us to destruction.”
For this reason the elders call
her <Dwòivá>> which means “the
one who is her own self.”
The whale was overjoyed
on account of our ancestor’s
faith. “I have tried to make this plain
to everyone, but there is such
a great chasm and distance to
surmount,” the Whale said. So, our
ancestor raised her left hand, and
then our ancestor raised her right
hand, and she who is her own
self clasped the hands together,
interlacing the fingers. And
<<Dwòivá>> said “the gap between
every finger is an
invitation to another
hand.” This is a gesture we have
retained, because it represents
the resolve to reach those who have
been estranged. Our ancestor and
the Whale journeyed to the Surface
together, and there, our people
observed the heavens, and saw the
stars and moon and other
entities. Whale then broke forth from
Beneath, and our ancestor climbed
on their back, and felt the air for
the first time, and that is when
Dwòivá felt the emptiness
of the Upper world. She grew
fearful and cried out, for she had
never experienced
separation from the Deep
before. This is why, when children
are born, they cry, because they feel
the chasm of the outer world
for the first time.
Endnote: The word translated “cry” is <<Rawurw>> and refers to any vocal sound expressed outwardly to affect reality, (like when a baby’s wailing gets the parent's attention). The Undulatrix frames prayers, spells, incantations, but also war cries, protest chants, militant demands in a revolutionary movement, radical theory/ideology and analysis, as examples of <<Rawurw>>. Like the Whale translating between worlds Above and worlds Below, <<Rawurw>> are attempts to fill a connective gap between inner reality and outer reality, amongst other beings. The name of my conlang, <<Nya Ragwa>> is derived from the same root as <<rawurw,>> specifying how I turned toward this speculative language to dive into a relation between my inner feelings/mind and the world/stimuli outside me. This philosophy of language is also inspired by African spiritual beliefs on the power of the spoken word, as well as Sylvia Wynter’s suggestion of a “Third Event” or the evolution of our species in Africa as a “language-capacitated form of life.” It is with <<rawurw>> we are trying to reach one another.